holy paint batman

Greg had the day off today so we did a little organizing and the crawl space under the stairs was getting out of hand. There were so many half used paint cans that have been piling up from my love of "change". We just kept the cans that the walls are painted now for touch ups and will be getting rid of all the others. Every spring our city has a free drop off for stuff like that and I'm sure it is coming up soon so now we can dump it all there. We are also working on the little projects around the house that are half done. I painted some trim so greg can cut it and finish our entryway baseboards and then I worked on the trim in our bedroom and master bath that was started a few years ago and never finished. That is such a job painting over wood it takes a million coats to look good. I probably spent 3 hours and it still needs a couple more days worth to be done. We are toying with the idea of moving but not really sure yet. This is a horrible time to sell but such a great time to buy so it is kind of a wash that way. There are many things we love about our house but the biggest thing that Greg and I have always wanted was more land. We live in a suburb and have a nice size lot compared to the city I think we have about 1/3 of an acre but the neighbors are still so close. I love all our neighbors but I just would love a hobby farm. I have always wanted chickens and a huge wooded yard for more privacy. The other big thing I want is a separate studio on the lot that could be my sewing studio. That way I could walk out there and be in complete privacy when doing all my crafty stuff it would be my own private oasis. Greg could also have a work area for all his projects too. A few of the places we are checking out have some out buildings on the lot and big pole barns that would be great for storage. The 2 biggest drawbacks for moving are Greg would have a little longer commute maybe 20-30 minutes extra a day which really isn't too bad. That would be about 10-15 minutes one way so 20-30 total on top of a 20 min. commute right now but since he is all over the city at any given time it could be shorter or longer. The other thing is my client base is perfect and I am sure most would not drive an extra 45 minutes when I get another salon set up in my house. I would have to start fresh with new clients and also make sure the town we moved to allows in home businesses. Most all do but some are harder to get licensed for so jumping thru all the hoops could be interesting. So those are things we have to weigh out. We have 7 houses set up with our realtor to check out on sunday so it will be interesting to see what is out there. We will probably come back home and say wow our house is so much better let's just stay??? I think the places we are going to see all have 3+ acres. Many of them are in foreclosure right now so they might be kinda scary. I can't believe how many foreclosures there are out there and I am sure there are plenty more to come in the future. It really is sad how our economy is looking. So even if we decide to stay put at least all our projects will get done around here, They have been bugging me!!! The thought of packing and moving really sounds like a ton of work. We plan on having a big garage sale this spring so we can get rid of a bunch of stuff. If we do decide to move I wouldn't want to list the house until the end of april the first of may so we have a couple of months to get things done and not feel rushed. If we decide to stay then all our projects will be done by spring and we can enjoy the outdoors cuz we always have tons of projects out there!!! Either way it is a win win for us. I love looking at homes. We have been in this house for 10 years and a change would be fun...maybe

It's beginning to look a lot like christmas

Looking outside our windows this is the song you want to sing. I swear this is the never ending winter! I know march is still cold and snowy but I was really hoping this global warming was real and we would start spring now. Once I heard we were to get 6-8 inches today I knew I wasn't going to go anywhere. So was sat inside and watched flushed away for the millionth time this week. She is so obsessed with this show right now. I don't mind it, it is kinda cute. Well all this snow will be fun for greg and Presley tonight they can go outside and frolic in it and shovel. I have clients coming tonight so it needs to be shoveled enough so they can get in my house. I am excited to see who gets the boot tonight on american idol. I really hope "elvis" stays!!! He is the one that sang last and sang satisfaction. I totally think he looks like a young elvis!!! Even watching him sing last night he had a little of the lip going too. He's hot so I hope he makes it. I can't wait for them to weed out all the sucky people and there are a ton of them!!!

better today

She was back to her normal self today just a little whiney. We are all going stir crazy here. We were going to go to the Children's museum today but her cousins came over to play so at least she got to have some interaction. They all play so well together. Georgia and I just lounged on the couch and got to chit-chat so that was nice for me too. I am going to try to get to the museum tomorrow. Other than that my life was quite boring today I managed a nap and have been nursing a headache for 2 days and finally feeling better right now. I hate headaches!!!

should have known

The 5:44am wake up call should have tipped me off to how the day was going to go!!!  At first it started out ok we went to the post office and all was well there and then went to the grocery store...made it thru with the help of animal crackers. Then once we went to the bank it all changed. I was depositing my business checks into my account and had the girl check funds in one of my clients account cuz last month she bounced a check and then I get charged 10 bucks so I was so glad I check cuz yeah she didn't have enough to cover this one either!!! What a pain in the butt. Last time I had to keep checking to see if she had money in there to get my money. Now I have keep checking again. So I never said anything about her last check I just ate the 10 bucks but now I am wondering if I should say something this time??? I mean what the hell??? then we went to the library and she fell down hard and bit her tongue and the nice quiet library turned into a screaming bloodfest. Blood is pouring out of her mouth I'm trying to mop it up and see where it was coming from and trying to calm her down before we get thrown out. I had a stack of books I wanted to check out too.... so the bleeding calms down and her crying became more of a whimper so I was able to get my books and high tail it out before too many dirty looks. So we go home and turned flushed away back on and things seemed fine till she wanted lunch and then the crying started all over again and her mouth must have been sore cuz she spits out her food and wouldn't eat so now I have a tired, hungry crying 2 yo on my hands. I said it is looking like nap time. I lay her down and couldn't wait to crawl into bed and take my own nap. Well that lasted 30 minutes before she woke up crying. I think her mouth hurt to much to suck on her nuk and therefore couldn't sleep. I was just falling asleep too so I dragged my tired butt out of bed and then the headache started pounding!!! She continued the whining all day and I popped a vicodin in hopes for some sanity oh yeah and Greg wasn't coming home till late so I knew it was going to go right from Presley to work.  I am glad this day is over and I am praying she sleeps till at least 7am tomorrow.

Too early

For about a 2 weeks now Presley has been up by 6:30am!!!  She use to sleep till 8 then it went to 7:30 and then 7 now guess what time she woke up today? 5:44am!!! That is just way too early it is still dark out and I am soooo not a morning person. Greg was still home so he got her some warm milk and put her back in bed and she stayed in there till 6:30 and came knocking on the door. UUGGGG I hate mornings and I think my days of 8am sleeping are over. This morning I put flushed away on in the living room and crawled back into bed and that worked for about 5 minutes until the Tori started barking!!! I can't catch a break. My dogs are so annoying. I really do miss the days of lounging around with no one to take care of but myself. I think I just need another weekend day to lounge. Sat. greg worked and sunday we both got up early and this weekend I work sat. so maybe sunday I can lounge until 9am in bed???? I have to run some errands today so I am trying to get some energy and hoping this coffee kicks in soon. I am just so over this day already and it is barely 8am!!!

I need a valium

I don't know what got into Presley today but she is so full of energy I am about to go insane!!! Everyone who knows her knows what high energy she has...much more than the average 2 yo so when I say it is even more so today that is just too crazy!!! I can't tell you how many times we are out in public and people say "wow she sure is busy" in other words that girl is a freak!!! "wow she sure does have lots of energy" in other words that girl is a freak!!! She is just like her daddy when it comes to high energy Greg 's dr said " he is a spirited boy" in other words he is a freak!!! I am so nervous she is going to have some ADD thing going on but we'll see. I guess time will tell and who knows maybe she'll turn into a mellow calm girl down the road. But for today I need a valium!

I love my husband but....

Ok I know I have a wonderful husband but sometimes I wonder what is going thru his mind. I swear he has ADD but refuses to admit it. He has lost his 4th!!! yes 4th cell phone in the last year and a half. How does one lose that many cell phones in such a short period of time. So last night I worked and he took Presley to home depot and to the club.  I came upstairs in between clients I saw that they had been playing with playdoh but left all the contents on the table and half on the floor. We all know what happens to playdoh when it is left out. It gets hard as a rock and has to be thrown out....so I wondered what he was thinking just leaving it all sit out when he took off? Then he confessed last night that after the club he and Presley walked out to the car and when he put her in the car seat he realized her shoes weren't on her feet!!!! Poor girl was walking on very cold cement all the way to the car in her socks. It was under 20 degrees!!! I just have to laugh cuz how does one not realize their 2 yo has no shoes on. Presley was happy cuz they had to go back in and she swiped another sucker on the way out. I know he is so great at many things but attention to detail is not his strong suit....but I still I love you G!!!!

self entertaining update

So I think the house is messier now than when I started cleaning!! Yeah Presley entertaining herself wasn't what I had in mind.

All my socks out of my drawers and on her feet.  Yes I own lots of weird socks and I wear them!!! 2 tubs of baby wipes emptied out and all over the place. There are just some of the wipes.

Saran wrap and tin foil all pulled out from their tubes. I was too mad to take the pic it was all ruined so in the garbage it went.

all her books pulled from her one shelf and put in a nice pile right after I just organized them all!!!

she found a half eaten bar from who knows where and was eating it. I didn't see any mold so I think we are all good

She dragged her changing pad out of her room and tried using it as a slide...she found this quite amusing. It lasted about 2.7 minutes before she was bored and started looking for more trouble. 

She found some chalk and decided to draw all over the bedroom mirror after it was nice and clean

I really need a cocktail right about now. Oh yeah and a cleaning lady!!!! I did put a nice dent in the laundry pile though. 

You just gotta love the minds of a 2 year old they can create fun out of nothing....just not fun for me to clean up after

snowing

UGGG yesterday was gorgeous it hit 40 degrees and today it is snowing and cold. Glad I got my errands ran yesterday. Today is just cleaning and laundry day. Presley is going to have to self entertain cuz the house is a mess. She has been such a good girl this week. No meltdowns and just sweet and happy. I wonder what next week will bring? Greg has been gone more this week and Presley has been walking around the house saying "daddy working" "where did he go???, daddy working" "I missa daddy". She is such a daddy's girl. When he does come home she is on him like stink on sh...... We went to the club yesterday and when I went to pick her up from the daycare she saw me and said no mamma and went running. I guess she wasn't ready to stop playing. So I just hung out and let her play a little more....guess I needed to workout longer or should I say I should have worked out!!!! Yes I just sat in the cafe and read some mags!!!! I was not in the mood to workout but I need to make my 12 times a month quota for insurance to pay a portion.  So I took advantage of the daycare and sat and actually relaxed and caught up on some mags. What a loser!

so much harder than I thought

I listed the crib and cosleeper on craigslist sat. and by last night both were sold and gone forever!!!! I thought I was ready to let them go but I bawled all night and still so sad. It makes me realize that I'm not ok with all of this yet. I think I need some happy pills to get me over this hump cuz I am in such a funk and it is really effecting everyone around me especially Greg. like I am just going thru the motions of living right now and not truly living each day the way I know I should. I feel like I should just be able to get thru this myself like one day just wake up and be my happy old Sheila again but it has been a year of this and I am tired of all the sadness and moodiness and I know Greg is too. I am hoping to save a chunk of money in the next 2 years and maybe try IVF one more time. I guess knowing that it might be a possibility it makes it so less final and something I can look forward to. We have a lot of saving to do cuz I think being 38 years of age IVF then will be close about $20,000.00. Maybe I'll play the lotto once a week and see....with my luck I know it is a waste of a dollar but oh well.......

Happy Valentines day

My mom came over to visit with Presley for a few hours this morning while I did some sewing and greg was out in the garage a bit. Grandma brought reese's cups my fave!!!! Presley ate a whole one and asked for more but we cut her off. That girl loves her sweets!!! I think most kids do and I can be quite the sucker and give in a little too much with the junk food. I am nervous for her first dentist appt. Speaking of the dentist my tooth is been bugging me and I need to get it checked out. I haven't had a teeth cleaning for about 2 years....it is hard to make an appt when I am home with Presley all day. I was so good and went every 6 months. I guess I need to get a later appt. when Greg is home. It was so easy before presley was born I could run all those appts. during the day and never worried about it. Now it is a whole new ball game. No big plans for tonight I think I will get to the club and that will be the highlight of the day. It works for me.

Grandpa

We finally made it over to my dad's house today. He has been in need of a haircut and he made me bring my shears to tame his wild locks. Presley actually wasn't afraid of him this time, he even got a big hug on the way out. He gives her treats the whole time she is there so that is one way to win over the heart of anyone. We then went to the library to pick up some more books. She is on a big dinosaur kick so we found some books with a bunch of scary dinosaurs. She loves to be scared. I think when she is older she and daddy will be watching all kinds of horror movies while I am far away from that. I HATE scary movies I refuse to waste even one minute watching them. I like thrillers without all the blood and guts. Greg loves the stupid zombie movies with all that gore. Not sure what our plans are for tomorrow. We might go out to eat but not sure if we want to deal with all the valentine crowds. Sunday we are going to visit his mom in Red wing that is about an hour from us and I think I'll bring my camera and see if the eagles are along the river. This is usually a big time that they come to the river and feed and sometimes there are 100's of eagles at a time. It is usually a better turn out when it is really cold and it is fairly mild right now so not sure but hoping to get a few on camera. I also need to do an assignment so I might set up my tripod and get that out of the way while I am there. It will be about 20 degrees on sunday so not overly cold but it will be short and sweet I won't be taking my time. I am making homemade chicken noodle soup and the house is smelling so good right now can't wait for it to be done!!!

valentines cards are in the mail

This was one pic in the photo shoot that didn't make it on the card....this is what I had to deal with, feet in my face, she thought it was quite funny but it made for some great smiles so I just entertained the "feet". I was really behind this year and almost said forget the valentine card but then what kind of mom would I be??? Family expects a card for every holiday and I just can't disappoint! I am cutting it close most people will be getting them by sat. but some might not till monday. Oh well they are done and that is a huge accomplishment for me lately.  I have turned into the biggest procrastinator ever and I was pretty bad before. This winter is really wearing on me. I need some warm weather to be able to get outside and recharge in the warm sun. It is so gray outside and all the snow is brown and dirty looking from all the sand that was put on the streets. There are quite a few patches of grass peeking thru the snow piles so a nice sign that spring isn't too far away. I know we are due for a few more snow storms and still have about 2 months before we can really get outside and enjoy it. Heck it can still snow in May here but usually we are pretty safe. I mean really there are only about 5 months of warm weather here. Remind me why I live here????

Childrens museum again

Today we met the cousins Lyla and wyatt at the museum to have some fun. I think it was their first time there and they seemed to love it as much as P.  I hope Presley doesn't get sick of it there. There are plenty of different rooms and we never make it to all of them in one visit and I try to change it up each time but a must is the water tables!!! They also change the rooms around so that is worth the membership cuz it is always something different. The clifford exhibit opens on valentines day so maybe next week we can hit it up again and check it out.  Well I'll be draggin' but booty to the club today when G gets home...had mcdonald's for lunch!!!

holy laundry

Man I didn't realize how bad the laundry has piled up!!!! Man I get sick for a couple days and the whole house goes to shambles.  We made it to the club...only 10 more times this month to make my insurance quota. Then we made it to the grocery store and I was able to keep the bill under 200...177.00 to be exact. I made it just one day short of 2 weeks so I was happy to stretch out our 250.00 dollar shopping spree from last week. We were getting real creative the last couple nights for dinner and Presley was drinking up our skim milk cuz she ran out of the 2%. She didn't seem to notice. Last night I had class and I said what did you make P for dinner. He made mac and cheese and mixed in scramble eggs and cut up pepperoni to put in it. I was like wow that is quite the concoction!!! He said she liked it and ate it all. I'm not sure if I would have eaten it but you never know?? So last night I loaned all my maternity clothes to my GF. That took every ounce out of me to hand them over I had total anxiety as I walked them out to her car and put them in her trunk. I have been holding on to them in hopes that I could use them again. It took the whole night to shake the sad feeling but I am ok today. It will be weird seeing her in my clothes though. What will be harder is going thru Presley's baby clothes this spring and getting rid of them. I am going to try to have a garage sale and make a little money off all those little gems she had. Maybe I can start an IVF fund and whatever I make I can add to it. Yeah it would take about 20 garage sales to make enough money to fund another IVF!!!! I keep telling Greg lets sell the house move up north into my grandparents old home. We could afford it then but greg would have a 3.5 hour commute!! He would have to stay in the city mon-fri ...yeah that wouldn't be too fun. But we could just do that for a couple years and be able to afford another kid. Just dreaming here. Grasping at straws here. 

tired

I think these drugs are making me extra tired. I didn't get much done today other than a nap and some reading for my class tonight. The sink is full of molding dishes but they are fine they'll still be there for me tomorrow. My GF sam is coming over tomorrow so they will be clean by then. She is lil' miss homemaker and always has a clean and perfect house so I need to keep up my facade. I am off to class in about an hour so I better jump my funky bod into the shower so I don't have to sit by myself

1 year ago

Today is a year anniversary of my surgery for my ectopic pregnancy. It has been a whirlwind of different emotions this last year.  Time really does help heal. I am finally coming to grips with the thought of Presley being our only one. Some days I am really good but some days not so much. I think as time goes on I will feel more at peace with not having any more but it is still a touchy subject for me. I also hate when people say well it might happen now that you aren't thinking about it....yeah hello the are medical reasons we can't get pg on our own. I know most people are trying to say the right things but it is best to just not say anything to me at this point especially someone who has no idea what it is like to deal with infertility. I think this year is going to be better for me as time goes on I know my heart will heal even more and hopefully some of this anger will go away. I still am holding on to some anger and I know I will have to work thru that. Presley is so cherished and I love being a mom and I want to be a happy mom for her. It is just so sad how times has gone so fast and how big she is already. I do miss a lot of the baby stuff but I love this stage too it is just going so fast I wish it would slow down a little!!!

ER visit

Ok at about 8pm last night my right ear started bothering me and I tried some home remedies like warm olive oil in the ear and warm compresses. I was popping tylenol like tictacs and by 1am I couldn't stand the pain anymore. I was crying and knew I wouldn't make it until morning when urgent care opened. I got dressed and drove myself to the ER. I can't believe I went to the ER for an ear ache but it was SO intense I was ready to blow my head off and knew they could help me. I usually get an ear infection about once a year and they have never felt this horrible. I had them all the time as a kid and finally had tubes but now I just seem to be prone to them when I get a bad cold. They were so nice at the ER I said I felt stupid coming in I feel like the ER is meant for big trauma but at this point I was big trauma. I do have a bad infection in the right ear and a start in the left so they gave me some great drops to relieve the pressure. I also got a percocet some cephalexin for the antibiotic and also a nice supple of vicoden!!! The percocet knocked me out so I was actually able to get some sleep even though I didn't get home until close to 3am and yes Presley was up at 6:30am!!! So I am very tired right now. Greg is working today so I get no break until he gets home. I will be napping when she naps today. My ear still hurts but feels so much better than last night. Let me tell you, you would have been sitting in the ER last night too it your ear was like mine.....so don't call me a baby dad!!! I also don't have an unlimited supply of vicoden either like some people I know. They really should make something stronger than just tylenol for over the counter. Talk about stimulating the economy I bet they wouldn't be able to keep the strong stuff on the shelves but the sales would be thru the roof. I hope Presley keeps up her good mood today cuz I have no energy for naughtiness.

bad mommy award

This pic says it all. I just let Presley graze out of the fruit loop box all morning. She had a kung fu grip on it the whole time and carried all around the house. The 3 dogs followed closely behind in hopes of a few morsels falling to the ground. They scored a few times. Well shortly after stuffing her face with pure sugar the highly energetic Presley became even more hyper!!! She was jumping up and down watching herself in the mirror for about 10 minutes straight. I thought for sure her little legs were going to buckle from all that jumping. I did get some great action shots. Fruit loops=great photo shoot. I guess there are worse things than letting your 2 y.o. gorge on fruit loops!!!

3 wise monkeys

That is what I think of when I look at this picture.  "see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil" I met my GF sam at the children's museum again today and we let the kids blow off steam. It was her birthday today and for the next 7 months she is a year older than me!!! We have been friends since kindergarten so many many years it is just so crazy to think how time has gone so fast. Someday these 3 wise monkeys will be our age and not these sweet little munchkins that they are at this moment in time.  I am loving every minute....well almost every minute. Oh I "hear evil" as we speak the monkey is up from her nap....gotta run

5 weeks

5 weeks into the new year already. I have been doing perfect on my 365 day challenge...can't say the same about WW. I am trying but had a hard time over the weekend and slowly getting back on the wagon. The horses just seem to be running too fast and it is making it hard to jump back on. Well I haven't missed one day of the challenge yet. I think I am used to taking a pic everyday and if some reason I'm laying in bed at night and said oh I forgot I will just get up and take a random shot that applies for the day. It is the best way to have a virtual journal. Some days are more boring than others but hey that's life right?? I like boring anyhow too much drama and action stresses me out. SIMPLE is my middle name....well it should be my first name. "Simple white" that is me. Greg was going to work late again tonight but plans changed so he'll be home to see Presley. I work till later so he gets to tuck her into bed. So NOT in the mood to work...guess I better hop into the shower and get ready

ready for homeschool

I was out today and stopped by our thrift store to see if they had some more sheets in for my quilting projects and I came across this little old school desk for 5 bucks!!! My sister and I had some when we were little but they were bigger and the tops opened and you could store books in them. We use to play school all the time and loved those desks. I wish we would have kept them. So when I saw this I knew it would be perfect for Presley to color on for now and when we homeschool she can sit here and do some work.  It is in need of a little TLC but that will be easy to spruce it up. I can sand down the top and stain and poly it and then I think I will spray paint the brown metal a black to match our decor. She looks like such a big girl sitting at it.  We just ran a couple of errands and she is still sick and talk about meltdowns in every place we went!!!! I had to pick up a gray card for school and they have a train table at the camera store so she played and I stood there and let her play for longer and then when it was time to go it was on the ground crying!! I had to scoop her off the floor and b-line it to the car. The at the thrift store I let her down to play in the toy aisle and when it was time to go...same thing crying and throwing a fit but at least she was able to remain vertical!! Note to self stay home with a sick kid. She just has a cold but i think she is overly tired and just should sleep the whole day but that won't happen. I hope she is better soon. We need to get over to my dad's and she has been asking to go to the children's museum again so once she is better we can get out of the house. 

love learning

Photo class was great tonight. We learned how to meter with a gray card. I totally was clueless on this subject. I knew how to change my white balance to customize it but never knew how to meter with a card. I kept trying to ask people and I just couldn't grasp what they were saying but now I know how to do it!!! I am such a hands on kind of learner and need to "see" and not be told how to do it. I've got some serious homework to do but excited to learn more and use it in my assignments and really understand it better. I am so glad I am taking this class I have already learned new things and I know we are just getting geared up for the bigger stuff. I guess I will have to go out and get a gray card. They are very cheap so that is a good thing. Both P and I were bumps on a log today. We both have colds and a bad cough so all I wanted to do today was sleep. That is NOT an option. She took a great nap today but I had too much to do so I couldn't take time for a nap. I should get my butt into bed now cuz there is no sleeping in anymore. Even if she does sleep a little longer my dog Tori starts barking from her kennel and wakes us up!!!! Some days I really wish I was pet free!!!  Ok my bed is calling me

date night was a flop

So plans were to go out to dinner and a movie. We ate at one of our favorite greek places. Food was great and I ate till I was full for the first time in almost 2 weeks.  Yeah the scale was not my friend this morning but hopefully that is due to salt. So service was so slow that we missed our movie at 7:10 and the next one was at 9:30 so we just went home and played board games together.  Well my phone rings at 10:30pm and it was my mom and Presley was in the background screaming bloody murder. She said she had been waking up every 30 minutes or so and screaming and that she felt hot. So Greg and I hopped into the car and drove the 15 minutes as fast as possible. It was a long long night she kept waking and screaming and crying with a fever of just about a little more than 101. We had her sleep in our bed for the very first time since she was a baby. It was hell with being woke up every hour. It brought back bad memories of her and being a newborn.....how I don't miss those days. Her fever broke at about 5-6am and she is slower going today but feels a lot better. Not sure if it is an ear infection or not we will see what happens tonight. If it is another bad night we will go to the dr tomorrow but I am hoping she is all better. It just always seems to flare up at night.  So our dream of sleeping in and enjoying the night to ourselves was cut short. Oh well our baby comes first and I just hate seeing her sad.